You could have psychological trauma after the fights, or other negative impacts, If it crosses the line, the choice to consult medical help should be available. The internet is the worst place if you get depressed. Some sites help you. Others make it worse. Sadly the latter is more frequent than the former.
Sounds like you have been bullied. Sorry to hear that. Here is the thing, you may not be a fighter? Some people are just not fighters. But you have strengths. My guess is your probably much smarter than those bullies. I rather be a doctor than a fighter. Being physically bullied only happens in H.S. Outside, it is very criminal to hurt people.
Why don't you meet up with someone who can take that bully out. Become friends with him. Than tell him how he bullies you? ...trust me, if he is a good fighter, he will stick up for you. Than you can help him with home work. Like some trade off ...lol.
Seriously, no human likes to see others bullied. Thats sad....I know kids have a mom and dad that love them. What if that kid kills himself? sad...very sad.....Most people feel this way...actually....80 of people will agree with me. Just become friends with a humble guy who is a fighter...make sure he is humble because he will be the one to stick up for you. Humble people think with their heart.
When I was very young I went to a new school and I was targeted. So I know how you feel. But, I took care of things..lol.
Looking back though, I could have resorted to other ways. For example, you can analyze people. Like a lion. Just observe people. See who the alpha male is. You want to stay away from them at first. Work in from someone who is lower rank. Become their friend. But, not their shadow. Just so you talk here and there. Than, work you way through until you find one who relates to you. That one you can take the same position within the group. Next, thing you know, at least you know the group. But, don't ever become their true friends if they fight their friends. I know how these mentalities work, and they often try to exploit new people. That is why, you never make yourself open to them. You just hit and run with them.
I love to analyze things. I been this way since a kid. But, yeah, you just need to work on how to figure out how to avoid fights. You can do it. There are many options by figuring out the ways in things.
dont over think it, how do you think soldiers get ptsd
I hate fighting. If I get in some fight or confrontation I get very depressed for so many days. I keep thinking about it for so many days, it is affecting my studies. How to get over it if you lost a fight especially with a big guy? I get easily scared.
